Wednesday, October 5, 2011
I am feeling very beat down when it comes to my Team right now. I can't seem to do anything to motivate or inspire them. I do a better job of loving them and knowing the "Scout way" but when it comes to the motivating department of my Scout calling I suck. I take their failure personally. I get to know them and learn what makes them tick and try to use that information to get them to do the things they know they should. I guess some of my true frustration comes from the fact that other boys are getting a less than decent program because of my inability to be a good Coach. I can't get them to lead! I hate agency.
I am a much better Training Committee member. I am a much better Advancement Committee member. I am a horrible Coach. "Those who can't do, teach" is a saying I have heard before and right now that is me. How do I justify being a Huddle Commissioner at Roundtable when my own unit struggles? How do I justify training new Coaches when my own unit struggle? I have never been so humble when it comes to doing a job. I can't do things the right way it seems. Obviously there is a lesson in there other than I suck. I guess I need to just explore that.